*sigh*
So I have seemingly neglected my blog in the past few months. There are several explanations, from the fact that I have tried to log-in, had difficulties, and said heck with it to the fact that I have been absorbed in so many new, interesting "things" that I have been completely distracted from focusing on any aspect of true writing. Sure, I've been piddling around on myspace a bit, but I never feel like I can wholeheartedly purge my thoughts in a blog that is so easily accessible and broadcasted as the one right there on my "space." It shouldn't be any different, I suppose, but it is.
A lot has happened. I am now a college graduate. I have taken two vacations. The last of my 11 cats-my baby-disappeared. I have finished a summer Math (Statistics) class that I was given a grant for. My son is pretty much potty trained now. I have become addicted to scrapbooking.
So now that I am $30,000 + in debt and possess the two pieces of paper validating my graduate status, I am scoping out the job market. So far, I am not satisfied with what I see week after week in the classifieds. There's a demand for: Truck driving positions, healthcare jobs, minimum wage piddly shit and the semi-piddly shit that goes something like this, "Great atmosphere, great pay...$8/hr." What?
Perhaps it's vain of me to think I can leap right outta the classroom and into a job that pays well, but settling for something that doesn't even meet the basic bills is not at all what I had in mind. Hell, even when I was teaching without a degree I made enough money to sustain a lifestyle where I didn't worry about affording gas to get me to work. (But then gas prices are a different story for everyone now, aren't they?)
I am still planning to attend law school, providing my test scores are acceptable and at least one of my two ideal law schools takes me in. All along I've anticipated getting in with no problem, but my confidence isn't so high now that it comes down to it. Family members are urging me to NOT go to law school, saying that I "need to be at home" and I "have no business going to law school." Never mind the fact that it is what I really want to do. Assholes.
Life is getting mundane despite the fact I've had plenty of adventures in between the weeks of daily routine. Sometimes I feel guilty for complaining, as I feel that this is the time to do so much, particularly all those things I hoped to accomplish after I quit teaching last January. A year and a half later and all I feel is restlessness. There's reasons for it; it's a painful feeling, nonetheless.
So I am leaving this post for now. I am obviously not full of much optimism today, so perhaps tomorrow I will have a better topic for discussion.
2 comments:
Don't you listen to your family on this one. If you really want to do this and you have already racked up a nice debt, don't stop when your half way through it and end up back at your old job. I would be so upset with myself if I did that. (look who's talking) Anyway, your kids would be so dissapointed in you if you quit and even if right now they are complaining that you arn't home that much, once it's all said and done, the end product will be there and when they look back at it will make them better kids for it.
First of all congrats on graduation.
Second of all, WTF? You need to be at home? Then WhyTF did you go to college in the first place. Go to law school!! Finish your dreams!!! Go for it!!
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